My declaration

A few days ago, I made a short declaration to one of my old friends via text message. I told him that I was taking control of my household and I was going to be more aggressive in being a husband and a father.

Why I mentioned this to this particular friend, I have no idea. I guess I just wanted to make at least one stark declaration in my lifetime.

Really, I think it was more of a wake up call to myself, that it was time to get off the roller-coaster of emotions and events that have been happening throughout the past two years and start to allow God to put things in my life that will help me prosper.

This blog, is one of those "things" that I feel God has put into my life. For years I felt as if I sat back and was quiet - always nodding my head in agreement or cracking a joke. I never openly displayed my voice or my opinions, until now.

The blog has given me a chance to get any and everything off of my mind. For those loyal followers who have tuned in can attest to the fact that I write about any and everything - typos included!!!!

But back to this declaration. I think it was a simple announcement that I'm tired of being afraid of life. I'm tired of simply waiting for some bad thing to happen.

The past two years have really shaped me and put me into the mindset that anything can happen and tomorrow is not promised, but I have also been crippled with fear and trying to play it safe because of those events.

I owe it to my wife, my daughter and my son's memory to stop living on autopilot and start taking control of my life.