Today was hard. I kept thinking about my life and some of the challenges I'm facing and then I began thinking about my son Aaron.
All these questions just poured into my head.
I kept thinking what I would buy him for Christmas. What would he be like if he was here now? How would he act around his brother and sister? Would he drive his mother crazy? Would I be teaching him how to play basketball? Would I be a good father?
Earlier this month, my wife and I went to honor his memory at a Memorial held at Children's Healthcare of Atlanta. Each year we light a candle. My little boy would be 6-years-old. They say you can get through it, but you'll never get over it. I have to agree. They're right. I'll always remember you Aaron.
The following is the first verse of Kanye West's song Only One, only altered to reflect my experience. So no this is not original by any means. But it's how I feel.
As I lay me down to sleep
I hear Aaron speak to me
Hello 'Daddy, how ya doin'?
I think the storm ran out of rain, the clouds are movin'
I know you're happy, cause I can see it
So tell the voice inside ya' head to believe it
I talked to God about you, he said he sent you an angel
And look at all that he gave you
You asked for one and you got two
You know I never left you
Cause every road that leads to heaven's right beside you
So one day we'll meet again, just keep the love in your heart
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